Archive for December, 2008

December 25th, 2008

My Christmas Eve was good. It’s nearly same each year, because we visit grands and meet my aunt with her children over there. Except for my dad being absent this year. Job doesn’t choose.

In the morning of 24th I baked a gingerbread. I was kinda afraid, because it was my first time doing that cake ever. It turned out great in taste, but after a couple of hours it got like caved in. Oh well. There was a lot of other tasty food. I ate way too much – as I do each Christmas.

Everyone got a gift and was enjoyed. My souvenirs made others happy, too. I was relieved and could spend rest of time with ease. As for movies – they keep playing the same thing all over year. We didn’t watch TV much, because there was always a topic to discuss. Overall, I spent a good time among family.

When I got home late on 24th, I lay in bed and started to fall asleep. I was quiet tired, because I got only seven hours of sleep the previous night, so I was impatiently awaiting to enter another world. When I woke I was pretty surprised with my dream.

I keep dreaming about Chaz. It repeats once or twice a month, sometimes more frequently. I always have this issue when I see him in dream: there’s a problem or we are either too shy to get intimate (even give a simple kiss to each other). I can’t really guess if it’s no willingness or just being shy. It bothers me, because he claims to have had one of those dreams as well. I can’t figure out what it means. I checked the meaning in my on-line book and the one I have at house, but there’s nothing special about it. Case remains unsolved.

Tonight it’s kinda boring. It feels weird to be already over Christmas. There was so much preparing, such a “fever” and you could actually feel that magic in the air. Now it’s just… normal.

December 22nd, 2008

I noticed that each year in December they put on TV meaningful movies – especially the ones concerning our emotional life. I think it’s connected with Christmas time when we should deal with problems and get along with family.

I can recall two movies I really enjoy watching that time. It’s “Jersey Girl” and “Family Man”. They put a man in front of making a decision on life. What does he choose: a carrier or either family? Both productions aren’t quite new, but they both tell the universal truth about life: family is the most important.

In modern world we count each dollar on the account and we try to have a pleasant life in which we can afford everything. We forget there’s something else – a family to take care of in a psychical and not physical way.

I try to forecast my life and guess how it’s gonna be for me. I can imagine myself with a loving husband in a nice home on suburbs – I don’t have to live in a city. Actually, the atmosphere of living in suburbs looks alluring to me. Also, even though it’s hard, I can imagine myself with children, too. I can’t tell how it could be, but I’m sure that’s something unforgettable in life.

What’s more, if it was needed, I would sacrifice my career in the name of family. As long as we can live affluently, I can take care of home and growing children.

December 20th, 2008

Of course I must have screwed something up sooner or later.

I accidentally deleted the whole sub-domain with all the notes and theme itself. I’ve never made a back-up, so you can imagine my frustration after finding out what happened. I hate losing important and valuable things. You can say it’s only bits, but to me each word means a lot. It’s kind of a remembrance.

Thankfully, I succeeded in bringing back the look of previous layout. I had sketches saved on my hard drive, so it didn’t take long to build a similar theme once more. There’s still some lack of pages and coding snippets, but I will work on that.

Except for that miserable event, nothing much has been going on lately. I went shopping the other day and bought Christmas gifts for family. I hate doing that, because I always have trouble getting stuff they actually might like. It’s a torment to guess, but in fact I enjoy giving.

In other news, I can’t wait for Christmas. There will be lots of food, gifts and TV movies. It a special time of a year and I’m always looking forward to it.