2008 was a year of changes, a year of a new chapter in my life. It started with preparations for graduation and a slowly burning-off love, and now ends with studying for midterms and meeting more and more new people. In the background a lot has been happening in my emotional life.
1. Graduation
I clearly remember days when I was preparing my final speech. I read a lot of books and worked my fingers to the bone to write down all the important things I can say later on the oral exam. It was an amazing time, and even though it was tough I knew I would remember it.
Graduation came in April, and so the break-up. Chaz and I became separate. We even stopped talking for a while. I decided to try a new relationship here in Poland. Unfortunately, the guy was shy as hell and it took a lot of time to move on with things.
In the meantime final exams came in May. I wasn’t as nervous as both my mom and grandma together. They wondered how I could stay so calm and not worry about how I do. I think it was natural and also contributed to my grades – I found out I passed with amazingly high scores by the end of June. That’s when the guy pissed me off with his indecision about me and I gave up on any kind of relationship with him.
I applied for University and was admitted in July.
2. Holiday
After a small “break-up” I decided to remain single until I would find a guy who really cared for me. I knew it would take a long time, so I simply stopped thinking about this aspect of my life. I went on my friend’s 18th birthday party in June and had a lot of fun. I enjoyed being free, even though something deep inside me missed having a soul mate. Also, I liked the party since I never went out for a whole past year due to school work.
My holiday was great – each month including time from May to September.
In the middle of July I visited mom’s friend with parents and stayed at her place for over a week. I bought a lot of clothes and finally enjoyed life the most I could. I did what I wanted to without feeling guilty of wasting precious time. I knew it was the only time in my life I could do such a thing. And I’m glad to have spent it in that way.
3. New people
In the very end of a July I tried chatting on-line. I hadn’t done that in ages, so I thought it would be fun. I couldn’t have known the best was just on its way.
It was August, a time when I met a couple of good friends. I also a kind of fell for some boy over there. He was older and crazy. I liked him for being so direct. We planned to meet in September since he lived close, but before the big day had come we argued and stopped talking. It was sad, because I still liked him as a friend.
Meanwhile I met by an accident a really nice, well-mannered and sensitive man. He was over 10 years older, yet it felt like we were the same age. We both understood each other well, I got emotionally attachted to him, even though I hadn’t realized it by that time. It came at the time he stopped appearing online. I never asked for his mobile or either Messenger. I lost him and I can’t deal with it until today.
I decided to give up on chatting and never come back to that room again. I was way too hurt with always losing.
4. Trip of my life
After another failure in my emotional life I left country in the middle of September. It was something new since the last time I did was over few years ago. I set a new aim up: start things once again when I go to college.
My parents and I went on vacation to Egypt – country I had always wanted to visit. Years must have past until my dream came true. I’m glad I had been waiting for so long without losing any hope: it was the best time I have ever had in my life!
I met wonderful people, including Egyptian men. I felt original, because I finally in my life was visible to the other sex. It was a great feeling to be adored by so many men at once. One of them liked me quite a lot and so did I. He was different from others, smart and brought up well. Unfortunately, the amount of emotions we gave towards each other was kinda different, so nothing happened between us, thankfully.
I still miss that place by now. I terribly want to go back. Memories will stay in my heart forever. I’ll surely visit again sometime in future.
5. University
When I came back home from vacation I caught cold. The weather in Poland was terrible! I saw doctor and started taking medication, but also had no other choice but go to classes. It was time for University and I couldn’t miss first days.
I met once more new people – I’m keeping in touch with them today. I can’t even count how many people appeared in my life during the past year.
As time and that whole monotony was passing, I felt more for some boy without even realizing what was happening with my heart. I decided to get back with Chaz as I found he’s the one for me. I had strong feelings for him once again.
Even though it’s almost half of a year from October, college still seems so different from what I was used to do in High School.
6. Driving license
December came and so did new things. I celebrated 19th birthday and awaited my driving exam. I was really nervous, but lucky at once: I passed, even though I shouldn’t have. I’m glad to be over that thing – it’s a hell to pass driving exam in Poland. Especially now, when the new year has come.
On 30th was mine & Chaz fourth anniversary. It feels so different from then. We both grew up, but still keep fighting about stupid stuff. I’m happy with having him, even though I hate him for waking me at unexpected hours or complaining about my wrong opinions. Of course, I have to add he still attempted to talk to me all this time we were apart and never lost hope of getting me back – he waited for me for so long. I love him for that.
Overall, I’ve had a pretty good year. I graduated, had the time of my life during holiday, was admitted at University, passed driving exam, had a good birthday, enjoyed my New Year’s Eve.
I hope everyone had a great New Year’s as well. I wish a 2009 year was even better to all the people!